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Marilyn Manson's Biggest Regret

  Throughout his career, Marilyn Manson has been asked by various interviewers about things he regrets, and in lyrics of his songs he has talked about both regretting and not regretting, but the last time he was asked about his regrets was in 2019, in an interview for the German magazine Numero Homme Berlin (Spring/Summer 2019) for which he graced the cover. I translated his response below: Sina Braetz: Looking back, what do you regret most about your life? Marilyn Manson: I regret that I was naive enough to let people believe that my kindness was weakness and that I allowed them to take advantage of it. Many people believed that I was actually stupid or naive because I was so friendly and they betrayed me. But that was my fault, not theirs. That's why I regret not having been competent enough to understand that my desire to have companionable friendship - or whatever you want to call it - to have friends or family, made me make a lot of mistakes that I wish I hadn't made. Bu

Marilyn Manson in the News (October 3 - December 15, 2022)

October 3

- Evan Rachel Wood Appears on Two Episodes of the Podcast "A Little Bit Culty"

Ever since Evan Rachel Wood appeared in the premier episode of season five on the podcast A Little Bit Culty on October 3rd, and when the second season of The Vow premiered on HBO on October 17th, which is a documentary series that chronicles the escape of the podcast hosts from NXIVM, which they describe as a cult, Evan has not only been fan-girling the hosts, but she has revealed how their documentary series was instrumental in her moving forward with her own documentary, Phoenix Rising, emphasizing what she describes as similar cult-like experiences while she was with Marilyn Manson. It is for this reason that I wrote the following article:

How Evan Rachel Wood Tried to Make Marilyn Manson a Dangerous Cult Leader and Herself a Heroic Survivor

Forthcoming is another article in which I will go through the long two podcast interviews with Evan and offer an analysis on some of the parts I found most interesting. Part one can be heard here and part two here.

October 3
- Marilyn Manson’s The Pale Emperor Is Dead Posey's Favorite Album

In October 3rd's L.A. Weekly, Danyell Souza of the L.A. rock band Dead Posey was asked what her favorite album of all time was, and she gave the following reply:

It’s extremely difficult to narrow down my all time favorite album but I’m gonna have to go with Marilyn Manson’s The Pale Emperor. It has the right amount of rock and roll with that don't give a fuck attitude that I’m always seeking for Dead Posey.

I know things are a bit controversial for Manson at the moment but it doesn’t take away from him as an artist and the blood curdling soul he injects into all his vocals. I subscribe to the idea that the more character in a voice the better, not singing perfectly like you’re in a fucking singing contest! You can learn perfect vocal technique but you can’t learn character – you either have it or you don’t.

This album is full of everything I live for when it comes to music, from the sex appeal to the dark twisted corners of the human mind I like to find myself wrapped up in.


October 7

- Marilyn Manson and Lindsay Attend a Celebrating David Bowie Concert

On October 7th, Manson and Lindsay attended the Celebrating David Bowie concert at the Saban Theater in Beverly Hills. Dressed in an outfit that was reminiscent of David Bowie in The Hunger, Manson looked like he had a great night and was welcomed by the band. Seated with them was the celebrated artist and friend of Lindsay, Carrie Graber.


October 9

- Media Reports on Madonna Looking Like Marilyn Manson on the Day Evan Rachel Wood Appears at Comic Con for Playing Madonna

Evan Rachel Wood has been hoping and anticipating for approval from Madonna for the way she depicted her in the new Weird Al biopic Weird: The Al Yankovic Story. Madonna has not made any comments. However, on the day Evan attended New York's Comic Con for her role in that film, on October 9th, the media was instead reporting on the reaction of Madonna fans to a video Madonna posted on her social media which many of them found to be disturbing, drawing comparisons for her post-surgery looks with Marilyn Manson. For Madonna and Marilyn Manson to appear together in the headlines on the day she appeared at Comic Con for playing Madonna must have been a real disappointment for Evan.

It should be noted, that in 2015, when a new Madonna record came out and Manson said he would like to fornicate with her, she replied on social media: "Um.........thanks! @marilynmanson ❤️#rebelheart"

October 28

- Patti Smith’s "Rock n Roll Nigger" Quietly Removed from Streaming Services

The incendiary track that closes the A-side of the Patti Smith Group’s 1978 album, Easter, “Rock n Roll Nigger,” is no longer available on streaming services. The track was quietly removed in recent months from Spotify, Apple Music, Tidal, and Amazon Music, though an exact removal date and Smith’s involvement is unknown. The song is still available on physical copies of Easter, which is one of Smith’s bestselling records thanks to its single “Because the Night,” and is still included when people buy the full album as a download. The reason for the song’s disappearance is unclear. Patti Smith has yet to comment on this removal, despite it being a popular hit during her live performances.

In 1995, Marilyn Manson covered this song and it was included in his Smells Like Children EP album. Of his decision to cover the song, Manson explained in an interview with MTV Japan in 1997: "I thought 'Rock N Roll Nigger' was a song that I could really relate to, and our fans could relate to, about being an outsider. I also thought that nobody else really, in our era of music, had the courage to do a cover of a song like that because, you know, they would get in trouble for the title but this song isn't about racism. It's about standing up for yourself."

In the song, Smith self-identifies as a "nigger", which she uses to mean a rebellious and honorable outsider, and this is exactly how Manson always interpreted it. In an interview with Rolling Stone in 1978, Smith further explained: "On our liner notes I redefined the word nigger as being an artist-mutant that was going beyond gender." She also emphasized that it should be interpreted with a sense of humor: "When I say statements like that, they're not supposed to be analyzed, 'cause they're more like off-the-cuff humorous statements. I do have a sense of humor, ya know, which is sumpthin' that most people completely wash over when they deal with me. I never read anything where anybody talked about my sense of humor. It's like, a lot of the stuff I say is true, but it's supposed to be funny."

Marilyn Manson's cover of "Rock n Roll Nigger" is still available on streaming services, and has now become the first choice for those interested in this historic hit song.

October 31

- Evan Rachel Wood Gives Marilyn Manson Vibes at Her Live Performances in October 2022

On October 26th, Evan and Zane did a Halloween show in Los Angeles, where she was costumed like Vampira with a featured performance of the song "Cry Little Sister". Though it can be argued that Evan has been performing this song for a number of years now, it can't be overlooked that perhaps the most popular cover of this song was done by Marilyn Manson in 2017, which officially makes his name more connected to the song than she is, and therefore any performance of it by her will draw comparisons. Furthermore, to add insult to injury, the lunar backdrop for the song and the concert altogether was a similar lunar backdrop Marilyn Manson used during his opening song on the Rape of the World tour, which Evan accompanied Manson on, when he sang "If I Was Your Vampire".

On this tour, before Manson sang his Vampire-esque ballad "If I Was Your Vampire", two songs were played for the prelude: "Bela Legosi's Dead" by Bauhaus, immediately followed by Schubert's Trio In E Flat, Op. 100 in a pitch black concert hall. These are the two songs that open the film The Hunger, which is a vampire movie starring David Bowie that was a favorite and an inspiration of Manson and Evan at the time. This fact further highlights how odd it was when on October 31st, Evan and Zane performed their Halloween show in New York dressed as the main characters from The Hunger, with Evan evoking Catherine Deneuve and Zane evoking David Bowie. To prepare for the show, Evan even posted on Instagram herself playing the piano rendition of Schubert's Trio In E Flat, Op. 100.


Oscar Wilde said "Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery that mediocrity can pay to greatness." Everything about Evan's art when it comes to her musical performances are imitations of someone, and you would be hard-pressed to deny that her years with Marilyn Manson didn't have some impact that still resonates in her performances till this day, despite the allegations.

October 31

- The Death of Laney Chantal

On Halloween night, renowned make-up artist and former wife of Jeordie White, Laney Chantal, died after an accidental overdose of her prescription medication, having suffered that night an anxiety attack while at a Halloween event due to her BPD. It is a tragedy and I pray her eternal rest in peace.

Though Laney Chantal defended Jeordie White in 2017 following the abuse allegations against him by Jessicka Addams, she did not stand by the best man at her wedding, Marilyn Manson, when allegations were made against him. This is primarily due to the fact that she is good friends with pretty much all of Manson's accusers and works with them, and many of these friends supported her and Jeordie when allegations came out against him. Laney even went so far as to make some very strange allegations against Manson herself. We saw this same love and support from the accusers when they voiced their lament and distress over Laney's early and tragic passing. Even Evan Rachel Wood made multiple posts on Instagram expressing her love for Laney, though in reality making the event all about herself, and went so far as to have her initials tattooed on her wrist. At one point, Evan even cryptically targeted Jeordie White in an ill-timed move.

I have much to say about Laney's death, especially about the reactions from it and what we learned as Manson supporters in the days that followed, so I will reserve anything else I have to say for a separate posting on it, which will be coming soon.

November 4

- Evan Does the Talk Show Circuit Promoting the Weird Al Biopic

On November 4th, Evan appeared on Live with Kelly and Ryan in the morning and Late Night with Seth Meyers at night. Nothing significant happened or was discussed, and both mainly focused on promoting her role as Madonna in the Weird Al biopic. Perhaps the most entertaining part was when Seth Meyers made fun of Evan for dressing as a character from The Hunger on Halloween, mainly because it is such an obscure film. But what I found most interesting was when Evan told Kelly and Ryan a very bizarre story about being a magician's assistant many years ago, which was clearly a reference to her touring with Marilyn Manson in 2007. I wrote about this very strange and unusual moment in a separate article.

November 4

- Westworld is Canceled After Four Seasons

One of the primary factors that motivated Evan to come out against Marilyn Manson in 2016 was her role as Delores in HBO's Westworld. On November 4th, after a lackluster season four finished airing, it was announced that HBO canceled Westworld, and there will not be a season five to end the series. Perhaps a movie is in the future, who knows, but Evan has now removed the reference to Westworld from her Instagram profile and is concentrating on her singing career in Evan and Zane. Though there will not be a season five, Evan and the rest of the cast will be paid by episode at the same rate as if they had filmed a season five, which means Evan will get around $250,000 per episode that she won't even have to work for. It was also announced in December that Warner Brother is removing the show from HBO services, which eliminates the possibility of the cast from getting any residuals from the show ... at least for now.

November 5

- A Three Part Documentary on the Marilyn Manson Allegations in the Works

We have been informed on social media through Greta Aurora and Nancy Marzulli that they have been contacted to be interviewed for a three part documentary on the Marilyn Manson allegations by a London production company in partnership with Rolling Stone. Whether this will come to fruition or not, time will tell, but in my opinion if Rolling Stone is involved then we can expect a heavily biased treatment of the subject that will most likely favor the accusers.

November 5

- Two Manson Accusers Appear in a Netflix Documentary

Netflix began airing a documentary titled Orgasm Inc: The Story of One Taste. It is about a sexual wellness company that gains fame and followers for its practice of "orgasmic meditation" — until members come forward with disturbing allegations. Making an appearance in the documentary are two Manson accusers heavily involved in sexual wellness that were even once roomates - Sarah McNeilly and Brittany Leigh.

November 7

- Evan on Watch What Happens Live With Andy Cohen

Evan was on Watch What Happens Live With Andy Cohen as she continued her talk show appearances promoting the Weird Al biopic. Nothing significant happened during this interview, except when Andy Cohen introduced Evan as having a black belt in Tae Kwon Do, which prompted me to write an article about Evan's claim years ago that she competed in the Junior Olympics.

November 13

- Jodi Jones Convicted Killer Luke Mitchell Seeks Freedom

Convicted killer Luke Mitchell's legal team handed a petition on November 16 with over 25,000 signatures into the Scottish Parliament for an early release from prison. It comes amid claims his legal team has new evidence to show he didn’t murder his then-girlfriend of four months, Jodi Jones, on June 30, 2003. Mitchell's lawyer believes up to 122 items gathered as part of the investigation into Jodi's death were never forensically tested. Mitchell was convicted of murdering Jodi in 2005, when he was 16, following a trial at the High Court in Edinburgh. He was sentenced to at least 20 years in prison, and has now been locked up for 17 years after losing three appeals.

At his trial, Mitchell was found guilty of attacking Jodi by hitting her on the head and body and compressing her neck, restricting her breathing. He was also found guilty of stabbing the teenager with a knife before and after she died, inflicting wounds to her face, ear, mouth, breast and abdomen.

The jury in the trial heard Mitchell was a fan of Marilyn Manson, who painted pictures depicting the gruesome “Black Dahlia” 1940s murder of Hollywood actress Elizabeth Short. Detectives believed Short’s murder was the inspiration for Jodi’s killing. Prosecutors also told the jury how Mitchell was obsessed with Satanism. The trial is believed to be the longest of a single accused in Scottish criminal history. A documentary by Channel 5 had seen many question raised about the conviction after the program investigated claims that it had been a miscarriage of justice.

For more on this case, including a video of the documentary and how false perceptions of Marilyn Manson played a role in the conviction, see the article: Could Convicted Killer Luke Mitchell Actually Be Innocent?


November 24

- Australian Singer Wentworth Calls Out Woke Cancel Culture Outside ARIA's

Singer Wentworth staged a "Last Supper" stunt outside ARIAs, saying it’s a call-out of "woke cancel culture". Set up outside the event were 12 3D-printed figures of controversial artists, including Kanye West, Kevin Spacey, Johnny Depp, Amber Heard and Marilyn Manson. Speaking about the stunt in a press statement sent out November 25, Wentworth said he wanted “to get people thinking”.


November 30

- Kat Von D Reveals a Musical Collaboration With Marilyn Manson and Expresses Her Support

On November 30th, Kat Von D posted two photos on her Instagram account with Marilyn Manson, saying that he "came by the studio" in her home and that she "can't wait to share a beautiful, special project we are working on." This generated hundreds of comments with mixed feelings from her fans and supporters, some even hostile. Kat would go on to offer a brave statement about her unwavering support for Manson amid the backlash, saying that she publicly supports him cause she knows what it is like to be falsely accused. For example, like Manson, a few years ago Kat was falsely accused of being a Nazi sympathizer.


Naturally, old friends and admirers of Kat turned on her for this support, including a few Manson accusers like Brittany Leigh, Torii Lynn and Saint Sasha (Jordan Arentz). In fact, it even brought out a new accusation by Saint Sasha, where she has now decided to publicly accuse Marilyn Manson of raping her. In her previous statements, her allegations against Manson never even came close to alleging rape or any type of sexual assault.


December 12

- Love Bailey Releases a Queer Burlesque Revenge Track and Video Against Marilyn Manson

Another Manson accuser, queer stylist Love Bailey, who claimed in February 2021 that in 2011 Manson held her at gunpoint and called her a faggot, released a single called "Hornatia" on December 12th. It was made "to reclaim her past experiences and create an unconventional display of joy, wit and horniness. The film takes place in an old-fashioned burlesque house and within the first 30 seconds, flashes two patrons reading headlines: 'Hollywood Madam Heidi Fleiss Tries to Extort the Savage Ranch' and 'Marilyn Manson Pulls a Gun to Artist Love Bailey’s Head' — moments that have undoubtedly shaped Bailey’s career." The song and video were therefore made to show "how joy and pleasure are the only vehicles for moving forward (and perhaps a little bit of revenge)."

Bailey explains that this project is her "standing in my power and privilege, telling my story and using my past as a tool to inspire and uplift my community." At the end of the video, during the credits, Bailey is seen setting fire to the news article describing her encounter with Manson.

You can see the video here.

December 15

- Dita Von Teese Discusses Marilyn Manson on the Going Mental Podcast with Eileen Kelly

Eileen Kelly interviewed Manson's ex-wife Dita Von Teese and published it on her podcast on December 15th. I thought it was a very fair response from Dita, where she expands upon her prior statement on the matter from last year. She highlights the fact that she was caught unaware when the allegations against Manson were made public and felt forced to make a statement of support for the women who did come forward, but because her experiences with Manson were much different she could not align her experiences with theirs. I have transcribed below the parts where Dita talks about Marilyn Manson, and it can be heard on the podcast here beginning at the 23:36 mark.

Why did you decide to speak out, if we are on the topic of Marilyn Manson?

Well you know I didn’t really speak out, but the thing was at the time, I mean, I had to say something I guess because ... but you know I had all these feelings like, ok, we hear a lot about, and Me Too, like, the time frame and when somebody feels comfortable talking about something and I thought: I don’t feel comfortable talking about this, but now I am being held to the fire to talk about it because somebody else wants to talk about it, so I felt that was something that came up for me, so I kind of tried to just make the statement that like my ... it was different it was just different, but I don’t want to ... I am not going to talk about it right now because I had a lot of people saying: "Oh you must have had this happen to you and you didn’t tell anyone," and I thought, like, my experience was different and I’ll speak to it when I want. And also I thought I did speak to it at one point when I was newly divorced, when it was, like, a hot issue for me and now, ya know, its 22 years later since my relationship and people change and I can’t speak to anything that happened before me or after me. And also I thought, today I was thinking this too, like, because I knew you wanted to ask me about that, I thought well, you know, the way I would even speak about the experience in 2005 when I was getting a divorce compared to now, like, I felt very much, like, I’m gonna, like, you know process all of this stuff and I feel different now, like, I feel very, and I also felt a lot of pressure in the last, ya know, 15 years to make amends and make peace because I would find myself out at events and it’s, like, there would be my ex-husband.

You guys do come across each other sometimes?

Oh yeah, there was a point where I felt so much pressure to, like, forgive and forget that I did and then this happens, and it’s, like, don’t you, shouldn’t you be friendly, so I just kind of, I got so exhausted by the whole thing, and then there’s ... everyone’s got their own story and own prospective and all I have is mine and I also have mine in various stages of life as well.

Do you guys speak at all?

I, no, I don’t really, I don’t, I think I spoke with him in like 2020, but I don’t, I try to keep my distance, especially I just feel like it’s a hot issue in so many people and I don’t want any, I don’t want to get into it. I want to focus on moving forward and maybe when I’m ready to talk, when it behooves me, you know, when it makes sense for me, if I want to write about it in my book one day I’ll do that, but I just feel like I’m not trying to, you know, it’s not what I’m not trying to, I don’t feel any need to right now.

Did you get a lot of backlash for what you said to people, like, jump on it, as if it was a statement or seeming supportive of him?

I was very, like, this is, like, why don’t you listen to the people who want to speak, like, I don’t want to speak, but my reasons for not wanting to speak, you know, are not what you think they are and it is again, like, we can’t put pressure on other people to speak about things in a time that isn’t right for us, and it’s just not the right time for me. I was not expecting it, of course I did, like, look at a lot of, like, try to understand what was happening, but again, like, I can’t, you know, I think Rose McGowan also said the same thing, it’s like, I didn’t, none of those things happened to me, but you know, I can’t speak to other people’s experience.

Quick Update on the Court Cases

Much has happened with the court cases in the past few months, so I will not go over everything. Here are a few things worthy of note to bring everyone up to date.

1. The judge granted the withdrawal of Ashley Morgan Smithline's attorney, Jay Ellwanger. By December 5th she was supposed to have a new attorney on her case, but she failed to do so, and even produced false contact information. Manson's team has asked for a dismissal of the case, which will likely be granted, since it seems Ashley no longer wants to move forward with her case, and has expressed in private correspondences that she will cooperate with Manson's lawyers if she stops getting bullied by Manson supporters.

2. As of December 16th, it has been revealed that the investigation by the LASD was essentially focused on the claims by Esme Bianco alone. Manson's team is trying to get a freeze on her civil case until the criminal investigation by the LASD is completed and the LADA has decided how the criminal charges will move forward.

3. Manson's team is still opposing Evan Rachel Wood's anti-SLAPP motion where she is claiming first amendment free speech protections. Her case right now is mainly focused on the forged FBI letter, whether it is authentic or not, where it came from, and how it was used, primarily if it was used to recruit others in a conspiracy against Marilyn Manson.

4. Manson's team is still trying to convince the court that Illma Gore knowingly and irresponsibly defamed Marilyn Manson regarding charges of pedophilia surrounding the Groupie film, now showing how these accusations helped target similar accusations and fashion similar stories of pedophilia and trafficking from other accusers.